Hmm I am typing on the keyboard. The keyboard which I am using is part of my Fujitsu laptop and it is manufactured in Japan. The city of Tokyo is in Japan. It is the capital city and I knew it from my Geography lessons back in ACS. ACS is in Singapore and I enjoyed my Geography lesson back then. My first Geography teacher was Ms. Pillay and she's a great teacher; the final one was Mr Chao whom many dislike. He is plump; pretty cute too. There are people of many sizes - thin, storky, muscular, lanky, athletic etc. Everyone have a definite body shape; err not really, snakes doesn't have because it doesn't have backbones. It's slimy, cold, long etc.

Anyway being away from home really made you fully understand this song (not only in terms of lyrics, which may be superficial, but in terms of the waves of feelings generated):

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where that river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

Loneliness is beyond descriptions; you may be in the middle of a crowd but that may not improve the situation much. I recalled this movie titled "英雄" that's being screened in early 2003. In the movie, one of the protagonist said that an individual's suffering is insignificant compared to that of the world. This phrase struck me pretty hard until one day Weng Chun told me the following:

"...it is foolish to think that the world has that much of a significant in your world when it is your world that really matters... gee… going back to that same point. but perhaps i tried to mean that even when one considers the world, he sees it within his own world's perspective, hence one cannot escape from viewing things "outside of oneself" - hence we should recognise the fact that an individual is bound to his world... that everyday things he sees and touches and that is what is real to him. So instead of comparing his world to something which is non-existent (the omniscient view of the world being impossible for any man to experience) he should try to improve his own world and understand that, that is what he has contact and direct effect on..."

So is my loneliness insignificant as compared to the whole world? Perhaps, but at the end of the day, the one that matters most is my world right (since I am the one experiencing such feeling head on)? From another angle, I can look at it in terms of the world where there are people who are much worse off. In that case, I'll feel better? There's always 2 sides to a coin, it's damn irritating.

The past 2 weeks of lecture on Biochemistry of Diseases was on Schizophrenia, Autism and Depression. A quick glanced through at the symtoms of these disease made me realized that I possessed some of these symptoms... hmm...